Lessons From Buddy


We are the proud owners of a Bichon Frise named Buddy.

We adore him. He is not “the sharpest knife in the drawer” as my cousin Elaine likes to say, but he is the sweetest dog we have ever had.

This past Sunday morning, Doug happened to notice that there were four enormous ticks embedded in Buddy’s snout. Horrified, he spent a couple of hours trying to remove them  but was only able to uproot two.

He gave Buddy a much needed break after that exertion and when it was time to try again, I moved toward Buddy to bring him to Doug…but he was not having it. He ran away from me as fast as he could.

He didn’t realize that I was trying to help him. All he knew is that he didn’t want to experience such discomfort and pain again.

Finally, we decided to take him to the emergency vet in town. The technicians were able to successfully remove the rest of the ticks and Buddy was as good as new.

However, things were about to change for  Buddy in ways he would not realize. When we took him on walks, we could no longer allow him to sniff and explore the higher grass since that is where the ticks thrive and latch on to him.

The problem is that Buddy  loved doing that. He buried his snout with abandon into the green grass and seemed to deeply inhale all the wonderful scents residing there.

The first time I tugged on his leash to prevent him from going into the forbidden area, he was not pleased. He dug in and pulled back, leaning determinedly back toward the grass. So began a tug of war. Buddy is surprisingly strong for only being 22 pounds.

Finally, he surrendered to the fact that he was not able to go where he wanted to and he stopped fighting me.

However, he was not a happy camper. He was mad at me for the rest of the afternoon. He sulked. He sighed. He refused to sit next to me.

I could not help thinking about the fact that I have often acted exactly like Buddy when God said no to something I wanted.

How often I have pushed and pulled, sulked and steamed.

Why can’t I have what I want? I would ask petulantly.

In my mind, it seemed perfectly fine and good….just like Buddy thought he should be able to explore the high grass and couldn’t understand why I was being so “mean.”

I was trying to save him from danger but he didn’t know that. My knowledge is so much greater than his. It was my love for  him that was the motivation for not giving him what he wanted.

But Buddy didn’t see my love…all he saw was the no.

Don’t we do that with our Heavenly Father? Focus on the no…and refuse to see all the times when He has said YES?

When we don’t understand a closed door,  we would do well to remember the wonderful promise of Psalm 84:11: “No good thing does He withhold from those who walk uprightly.”

If He is withholding something, it isn’t ultimately good for us. Even if we—in our very limited wisdom— think it is.

That is when we reach a fork in the road.

We either surrender to the infinite wisdom of our good and gracious Heavenly Father, resting in the fact that our finite minds simply cannot comprehend His infinite one.  Or we run from Him, just like Buddy ran from me when I was trying to carry him to help. The ticks on his snout must have been painful but he was willing to live with that pain rather than run in the direction of healing.

This life is too short to cling to bitterness about closed doors.  Will you continue to dig in and insist on your own way?

A much better plan is to release the pain, your expectations, your hurt feelings to your God.  He loves you. He only gives what is best. Stop fighting Him. Adjust your pace to His. Let Him lead. He sees the big picture and He knows exactly where He is going.  

Yes, coming to Him for healing can sometimes hurt but ultimately it will set you free. 

That freedom is worth whatever you have to do to obtain it.

He is the Rock and His ways are perfect  and all His ways are just. A faithful God who does no wrong; upright and just is He. —Deuteronomy 32:4

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An Afternoon With The Greatest Generation


My son plays in a band called New Horizons. It is an international organization that was established for the purpose of giving adults who have always dreamed of playing an instrument an opportunity to do just that.

At 16, Josh is the youngest member of the band but he loves it. He enjoys the people and it gives him another venue to play his beloved oboe.

This past Saturday was their first concert of the year and it took place at the local Veteran’s Home.

The band arrived an hour before the show to practice. Some of the residents came early so they could listen in, including one man who seemed particularly excited to be there. He asked the aide to wheel him right up front and his face was wreathed in smiles.

However, it soon became apparent that he didn’t understand that the band was only practicing. As soon as they would begin to play, he moved  his arms enthusiastically, as if he were conducting. But when the band would stop in order to go onto the next piece of music, he would drop his hands back into his lap and plead loudly, “Continue! Make melodies!”

When this happened a couple of times, an aide walked over to him and explained that the band was just practicing and the concert would begin soon enough. He waited patiently from that point until the concert began. Once it did, he continued to “conduct” with abandon and joy. The look of sheer happiness on his face was wonderful to see.

I was particularly intrigued when these two women were wheeled into the room…

What beautiful faces of two brave women who chose to step up and serve our magnificent country during WWII.

In a room full of mostly men, their lights shone brightly.

I so wanted to hear their stories but uncharacteristic shyness kept me in my seat. Instead, I asked one of the aides where the women had served. I was told that some were nurses, some served in the Women’s Auxiliary Air Force, and one of the women was actually a gunner on a battleship!

Amazing.

The room was full by the time the concert started.

When the band played the service anthems for each branch of the military, the veterans were asked to raise their hands when the song representing their branch was played. Hands shot up proudly all over the room.

As the first strains of “National Emblem” filled the air some felt the need to stand (most with great difficulty) and salute the flag at the front of the room.

Tears filled my eyes as I watched these great American warriors proudly salute. I felt so honored to be in the same room with these incredible men and women. My father served in the Korean war and both of my uncles saw combat in World War II. They are my heroes.

Will America ever see such a spectacular generation again?

I wanted to personally thank and shake every single veteran’s hand once the show ended.

Someone I was thrilled to meet was the “conductor.” His name is Robert and he served with the Navy. I was able to shake his hand and thank him for his service.

He was very intent to meet the band’s conductor, Mary.

He thanked her over and over again for coming to the home.

I am continually amazed at the power of music to unite people, to soothe, to bring joy, to cause one to go back and relive times that now exist only in the memory.

It was a wonderful way to spend a few hours on a Saturday afternoon. I am so grateful for the band members for giving of their time and talent to bring such joy to these men and women who have given so much.

“Freedom isn’t free.” —Anonymous

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Hometown Memories


This past week was school vacation in my part of the country, so we loaded up the kids and drove to western Massachusetts.

This may not sound like a particularly exciting spring break destination but that happens to be where my husband grew up. He wanted to share his memories and some of his story with our kids.

As our kids grow older, Doug and I have been sharing more of our personal stories with them. Our goal is that they see us as just more than “Mom and Dad”…but as Doug and Susan, who have lived our own struggles, joys, heartaches, and triumphs. My parents both did that with me and it helped me grow in empathy and understanding.

It’s always an amazing and transforming moment when you see your parents as people who had lives long before you ever entered the scene.

Preconceived notions shatter (as they should) and are replaced with reality… in all its’ glorious messiness.

That is the moment when relationships get real and things that may have always troubled us begin to make sense.  That is when we begin to understand a fraction of the love that our great and wonderful Heavenly Father has for us.  He sees all our broken places and loves us anyway.

If we will allow Him, He will love us into wholeness and restoration and healing.

It is also a humbling experience to look into the eyes of your teenagers and share the mistakes of your youth (as needed and with discretion, of course), hoping, willing, and praying that  they will learn the lessons from you in the classroom, so to speak, rather than having to take a field trip.

We drove by the house Doug lived in from the time he was seven until he left for college at eighteen.

Houses still speak, even when it has been years since we may have lived inside their walls. What happened there shapes who we are, for better or for worse.

Doug’s parents have been gone for over twenty years. Their lives once played out in that little  ranch house where they raised two daughters and a son. Sadly, few good memories exist for any of them.

It is comforting for me to know that as he rode his bike all over the rolling hills of  western Massachusetts during those years, there was a woman in western Pennsylvania who was praying for him. She didn’t know his name yet, but that woman was my mother, who steadfastly prayed for the man I would marry.

What a beautiful legacy.

And what a beautiful Savior, who answered those prayers when my husband was 27 years old and finally came to know the One Who always gives beauty for ashes.

We also visited the house he and his family lived in for one year in Connecticut:

I love that after 22 years together, I am still learning new things about my husband. Such as the fact that if his dad had not taken the job that necessitated the family leaving Connecticut for Massachusetts, he might have become a juvenile delinquent!

His best friend was the son of the superintendent of schools in that town. He taught little six year old Doug how to break into the school at night and steal pencils and erasers from the desks.

They also used to roam over to the fancy and exclusive Miss Porter’s School and peer into the windows to see what was happening.

The girls would notice them and smuggle them into their rooms and give them snacks because they were so cute. If someone came by, they would tell the boys to hide. After all, who in the world could resist this face? 🙂

Throughout the three days that we were away we shared stories. Ironed out some misunderstandings and hurts. Laughed a lot. Discussed goals and dreams. Treasured the time, knowing that it is short as our son will be in college in two brief years.

All our lives are richer for having spent this time together in a small college town.

Do you know the stories of those closest to you? Do they know yours?

Everyone has a story.

Today is as good a day as any to start telling yours. And listening to theirs.

“You have a unique message to deliver, a unique song to sing, a unique act of love to bestow. This message, this song, and this act of love have been entrusted exclusively to the one and only you.” —John Powell

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Today…


Today…

***I was blessed to wake up and see these visitors in our back yard:

The poor turkey was mightily strutting his stuff in pursuit of a female. Sadly for him, she was not interested in the least. Deflated, he lowered his feathers and disappeared behind the rock wall at the edge of our property.

This doe stood completely still for at least 5 solid minutes. I ran to get my camera, thinking she would be gone by the time I got back but  there she stood, as if to allow me to get a good shot. The only thing that moved was her head, as she surveyed her surroundings with an alert eye. Every time the shutter on my camera clicked, her head would snap back in the direction of the sound. It seemed as if she was looking right through the sliding glass door at me, despite the fact that we were 65 feet away from each other.

We have all kinds of wildlife meander across our property: black bears, turtles, foxes, coyotes.

I am still waiting to see a moose!

***I am missing a lady who was very special to me.

Her name was Carolyn and she was like a second mother to me. She and her husband Dale lived next door to our family for over 40 years and we loved each other through thick and thin. Our parents were the best of friends and their kids were like siblings to my brother Jeff and me.

Carolyn left this earth three years ago today.

Life just isn’t the same without the phone ringing and hearing her say, “Hi Suz!” Or getting a handwritten recipe from her in the mail. (To the end, she remained an optimist that I would one day love to cook. 🙂 ).

On my wedding day, she looked right into the video camera and said, “I love that girl like she was my own daughter.”

I loved her too.

***I still can’t quite believe that my son attended his first Driver’s Ed class last night. I am wondering where the time has gone. How did he go from this:

To this…

so fast?!

***I will be cheering Josh and Julia on at their track meet…

***I am looking forward to getting out on the lake with Doug on this…

***I am so happy that my oldest friend in the world finally joined Facebook this week. 

We grew up next door to each other. I love him like my own brother.  His work takes him all over the world now, so far from the little dead-end street where our lives began. Months (and sometimes years) may go by until we are back in our hometown at the same time, but when we are, all that time melts away and the familiar rhythms return.

When his mother died, I flew home to honor her life. He and I stood just outside the viewing room, greeting visitors. Without fail, every time one of the parents of our neighborhood friends arrived, we said (almost in unison), “Hi Mr. _________ or Hi Mrs._________.” There we were, in our mid-40s, still  reluctant to call them by their first names. 🙂

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised in a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days
—Adele

There is something so special about childhood friends who have known you through the good and bad, your worst days and your best days.  We share an unbreakable bond.

***I am wondering what has become of my mind. 

Since I turned 47 years old last month, I seem to be forgetting things right and left. Just this morning, I was walking on the high school track after dropping the kids off, and I was thinking how great it was to have a free morning.

At that very moment, I remembered that I did not, in fact, have a free morning…the previous week I had agreed to meet a friend  this day….in 15 minutes!!!!

I rushed home just in time for her to arrive. I immediately apologized for the fact that she had to see me in sweats and no makeup because I had totally forgotten that she was coming!

On the other hand, I may be losing my mind but I am apparently not losing my looks. Just yesterday, I was talking to a beautician who works at a local spa and she expressed amazement when I told her that I had just turned 47. She said she never would have guessed.

So there’s that.

Happy Thursday everyone! 🙂

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The Little Things (Part 2)


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After reading this post, one of my readers wrote the following heartfelt observation: “I am always skeptical when I hear this—‘Jesus cares about the small things’—because every time I wonder if He cares, I think, ‘Surely not; this is so trivial compared to the cares of people in the third world countries!’ I always have the sense of Jesus telling me to buck up because I have so much to be thankful for, I shouldn’t be feeling weary, insecure, or whatever I’m feeling at the moment.”

So, does Jesus truly care about the “little things” in our lives? Does He care about our feelings?

I believe He does,  as evidenced by the following Scriptures:

...(Cast) the whole of your care (all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all, on Him, for He cares for your affectionately and cares about your watchfully.—I Peter 5:7

Notice the absolute words: whole and all.

All means all: big, small, and everything in between.

Do not gloss over the word affectionately. It means: “characterized by love, displaying tender feelings.” That is how Jesus feels about you.

Psalm 62:8 urges believers to: “Trust in, lean on, rely on, and have confidence in Him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts before Him. God is a refuge for us (a fortress and a high tower).

This Scripture simply speaks to pouring out your heart to Him. It gives no caveats, no mention of degree of distress, no “big” or “small” things. He desires that we share everything with Him. He loves to hear us talk to Him.

If it is important to you, it is important to Jesus.

Job asked, “Does not God see all my ways and count all my steps?”—Job 31:4

God Himself told Jeremiah, “My eyes are on all their ways, they are not hidden from My face.”—Jeremiah 16:17

This is a God who rejoices over us with singing. He calls us precious to Him. He adores us. In fact, Ephesians 2:4 describes His love for us as “great, wonderful, and intense.” (Amplified version).

Everything about us interests Him. He is intimately familiar with all our ways: “O Lord, You have examined my heart and know everything about me. You know when I sit down and stand up. You know my thoughts…you know when I travel and when I rest at home. You know everything I do. You know what i am going to say even before I say it, Lord. You go before me and your follow me. You place Your hand of blessing on  my head…You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb…You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in Your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed. ” —Ps. 139:1-5, 13-16

His thoughts about us are constant: “How precious are Your thoughts about me, O God. They cannot be numbered! I cannot even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand!” —Psalm 139: 17-18

He even knows the exact numbers of hair on our heads (Matthew 10:30).

He never looks away from us for one nanosecond; He even watches us while we are sleeping (Ps. 139:18).

Yes, He calls us to be primarily concerned with others and with helping the poor. Nowhere in Scripture does He advocate self being our central focus.

However, Jesus knows firsthand how hard it is to be a human being living life on this fallen planet. We can be beaten and bruised. Exhausted and irritated. Elated and excited. Heartbroken and sad. Frustrated and annoyed. Content and joyful.

We need a safe place to take all of that and Jesus provides the perfect strong shoulder and listening ear. We are to live all of life before our Savior “Who fills everything everywhere with Himself.” –Ephesians 1:23

I keep a running dialogue with Jesus all throughout my day. I talk to Him about anything and everything. I pray to Him. I laugh with Him. I have cried many tears in His presence. I remind Him of His promises to me in His Word. I practice memorizing my Scripture passages to Him. I sing to Him. I praise Him. I listen for His still,  small voice speaking to my heart.  I wrestle things out with Him when I don’t understand His ways.  I ask Him to help me see the big picture when I am mired in the minutiae  of this life. I ask His forgiveness when  I stumble…and then I ask Him to pick me up and fill me with His strength to keep going.  I thank Him for the glorious beauty of nature all around me. I most especially thank Him for the loved ones whom He has given to me.  And every single day, I pour out my heartfelt gratitude for the fact that He came to save me.

Yes, He cares about the little things.

He cares about it all.

Hear and answer me, O Lord, for Your loving-kindness is sweet and comforting; according to Your plenteous tender mercy and steadfast love turn to me. —Ps. 69:16

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A Perversion of the Gospel


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Jesus Christ was without a doubt the most shattering Person to ever walk the face of this earth.

Through the four Gospels we get a thrilling eyewitness account of His life when He lived in first century Judea.

As God in human form, He raised the dead to life.

He cast terrifying demons out of people.

He restored withered limbs.

He healed diseases.

He calmed ferocious storms with just a word.

He welcomed people from all walks of life to come to Him…from the religious elite of the day, to terrorists,  to tax cheats, to prostitutes and adulterers.

He gave sight to the blind and hearing to the deaf.

He gave the paralyzed the power to walk.

He fed 5000 people with a few loaves of bread and a couple of fish.

He faced extreme torture and a horrifying criminal’s death on the cross with astonishing bravery, dignity, and supernatural peace.

And on the  third day, He triumphed over death itself and burst from the tomb, fully ALIVE forevermore.

To know Jesus is to be totally and completely transformed…to be encompassed in an eternal, divine love story for the ages.

To know this Jesus is to know JOY.

To know this Jesus is the very reason for our existence.

To know this Jesus is to “have and enjoy life, in abundance, to the full, til it overflows.” (John 10:10).

***

This past Easter weekend, a certain church felt it necessary to feature explosions and armed rapelling commandos during the service, leading one terrified member to frantically text her friend in another state with the following words: “Guys on stage with assault rifles, weird vibe, please pray for us.”

This friend then called the police, who rushed to the church, only to find that the pastor had staged a fake raid for a theatrical lesson on Christ’s resurrection. A statement by the unamused police lieutenant suggested that in the future, the pastor let the attendees know when fake weapons are being used.

You may wonder what in the world such a thing had to do with the glory and power of Christ’s resurrection.

Absolutely nothing at all.

It was simply a cheap, pathetic ploy to generate buzz, to fill seats, to prove how “cool” they are to the unchurched. At one point, the pastor actually said how neat it was to “blow up things in Jesus’ name” and how the creative team at the church “could teach Vegas a lesson.”

Because that is what you want to ask yourself when you attend a church service: “How does my church compare to a show in Las Vegas?”

This entire scenario really got my blood boiling.

Why?

Because such ludicrous and idiotic behavior mocks the sheer beauty, simplicity, and power of the Gospel. It is as if the pastor feels that he has to jazz up poor, boring Jesus by staging these ridiculous stunts. This is not the first time this church has done something outrageous in an attempt to prove how “hip” it is to the surrounding community. Case in point: some recent series were entitled: “Dropping F-bombs” and “Sexpectation.”

This is nothing but  a perversion of the gospel, pandering to man’s flesh, and playing to the lowest common denominator in our society.

In his excellent book Unfashionable, author and pastor Tullian Tchividjian warns against the church trying to copy the culture: “Christians make a difference in this world by being different from it, not by being the same…we need to remember that God has established His church as an alternative society, NOT to compete with or copy this world, but to offer a refreshing alternative to it. When we forget this, we inadvertently communicate to our culture that we have nothing unique to offer, nothing deeply spiritual or profoundly transforming. Tragically, this leaves many in our world looking elsewhere for the difference they crave…the more we Christians pursue worldly relevance, the more we’ll render ourselves irrelevant to the world around us.”  (pp. 22, 15-17).

I realize the tone of this post may sound like I am angry but the truth is, I am heartbroken. I know that there were unbelievers in that church auditorium that Easter. What  message does that send to them? That you should come to church to be entertained by explosions and gimmicks, a pale imitation of a Hollywood action movie set?

Jesus does not need special effects!

I would like to ask that pastor a question. If the people who were alive and actually interacted with Jesus when He walked this earth  and saw Him do all of the things that I listed at the beginning of this post still turned away and refused to walk with Him…what makes him think that all of this manufactured razzle-dazzle will be successful at reaching a stone-cold heart?

When we have people coming back to church to see how that service will top last week’s extravaganza,  those are not people who are truly seeking Jesus. They are not people whose eyes have been open to the fact that they are guilty in the eyes of a holy, righteous, and just God and are desperately running toward the shelter of the  Cross, which is their only hope of salvation from His wrath against sin. These are not people who are overwhelmed by the glorious beauty of His grace in taking the punishment that was due them.

They are exactly like the people over 2000 years ago who followed Jesus just because they got a kick out of all the miracles. And when the excitement wore off, when Jesus began to tell them that to follow Him meant dying to self in order to fully and truly live, they faded away because they were too enthralled by all the shiny objects this world has to offer.

And it broke His heart (John 6:57-68).

Followers of the risen Jesus spend a lifetime being totally captivated and enthralled and transformed by the sheer beauty and wonder of the Gospel. He offers fullness of joy and pleasures evermore (John 16:11). The riches He offers are described as: “boundless, fathomless, incalculable, exhaustless” (Ephesians 3:8).  He promises to do “superabundantly, far over and above all that we dare ask or think, infinitely beyond our highest prayers, desires, thoughts, hopes or dreams” (Ephesians 3:20). His grace is “immeasurable and limitless” (Ephesians 2:7). He has delivered and drawn us out to Himself out of the control and dominion of darkness and has transferred us into the kingdom of Light (Colossians 1:13). He rejoices over us with singing (Zephaniah 3:17) and eagerly awaits the coming day when He will “present us unblemished, blameless, faultless, before the presence of His glory in triumphant joy and exultation, with unspeakable, ecstatic delight” (Jude 24).

No, this Jesus does not need any “help” from earthly and slick marketing schemes.

This Jesus stands alone in all His transcendent beauty and magnificence.

Now He is the exact likeness of the unseen God (the visible representation of the invisible…For it was in Him that all things were created, in heaven and on earth, things seen and unseen, whether thrones, dominions, rulers or authorities; all things were created  and exist through Him…and He Himself existed before all things, and in Him all things are held together. —Colossians 1:15-17

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April 5th


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Three years ago today, a dear friend and I sat together in an empty church sanctuary fighting back tears as we contemplated the fact that unwanted trials had crashed into our lives, leaving fear and uncertainty in its wake.

We had shared our prayer requests and we had searched the Bible together for promises to cling to, knowing that God’s eternal, unchanging Word was our only anchor in the storm.

Suddenly, a wonderful idea dawned on me like a ray of hope and I turned to my friend with a smile.

“Why don’t we agree to meet on this day next year?! This  awful season will be over and we can celebrate God’s faithfulness and goodness in taking care of us!”

She wholeheartedly agreed and we parted ways, looking forward to all the praises we would share one year later.

Except…April 5, 2010 arrived…and the storms were still raging in our lives.

Still, we praised God for the myriad of ways He has protected us, provided for us, guided us, and loved us. Our anticipation was high that next year would be the year when this would all be over. We so looked forward to that day.

April 5, 2011 dawned and my friend and I faced that date with bruised hearts. The road had been so long, the path rocky. The tears had flowed and so many prayers had flooded the Throne.  Still, joy was present. We had both learned to savor and count our blessings from the hand of our very good God, which is always a pathway to joy.  We still declared God’s goodness to each other, in the face of circumstances that overwhelmingly screamed the opposite.

He promises that He will never break a bruised reed or quench a dimly burning flame (Isaiah 42:3). Against all odds, hope still burned in both of our hearts. We didn’t understand but we were determined to praise through this. Our hope was not wishful thinking. For the Christian, our Hope is a person and His name is Jesus.

And Jesus is faithful. Always.

This morning, April 5, 2012, I received an email from the friend who I have truly grown to love.

While we weren’t able to get together on this day, this was a day of rejoicing.

Three years later, the storm clouds had given way to sunshine and the promise of spring. We had both entered a very welcome new season in 2011. Life did not suddenly become perfect for either of us (there is no such thing), but we had seen the hand of our Savior move powerfully in our situations, performing wonders that only He could.

Our faith had triumphed and our friendship was as real as it gets. We had laughed, we had cried, we had prayed. We had survived.

A precious gift…gold from the fire.

Yet, Jesus had one more surprise on this day for me. He always has more in store for us than we can even imagine.

About a month ago, I mentioned to one of my best friends, Jackie, that Doug and I would soon be celebrating our 20th wedding anniversary. She informed me that the twentieth anniversary was represented by platinum. Since I am a big fan of jewelry, I was all over that and shared this important news with Doug. Being the amazing husband he is, he agreed that a diamond and platinum ring was the perfect way to celebrate such a momentous milestone and we paid a visit to a local jeweler.

This afternoon, my phone rang.

It was the wife of the jeweler, telling me that my ring was ready…three days early.

All of a sudden, it dawned on me what day it was…April 5th.  How sweet His timing is! Three years to the day that I sat in that church sanctuary, wondering what my future would look like.

Now I knew the answer to that question.

I live in a beautiful home that we easily could have lost with the man that I have loved for almost half my life. Following the toughest years of our lives, our marriage is stronger than ever. Our children are thriving. We are debt free.

We. are. a. MIRACLE.

Imagine if I had given up. Look what I would have missed! Jesus alone knew what my life would look like three years from that day and all He asked was that I trust Him day by day (sometimes minute by minute).

Through it all, He gave me the greatest gift of all: Himself. Regardless of how this  thing had turned out, I knew I would be okay because I can never lose Him. He is everything to me.

Please hear this if you are going through a struggle right now: His timing is PERFECT. He can be trusted.  Cling to Him. Do not give into fear. Never give up. 

We are living proof that God honors bold faith. That He is and always will be GOOD. That His love never fails. That His Word can be trusted. That He is a REDEEMER.  That when we finally let go of all that we frantically cling to and open our hands, He can fill those hands with blessings unimaginable.

I will praise Him for as long as I live.

And each time I look at this ring,  I will remember the miracles He performed on our behalf.

No, there are not always happy endings in this life.

But we don’t live for happy endings. We live for a Savior who is always ENOUGH.

“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you. I have summoned you by name. You are Mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned, the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord your God, your Savior…you are precious and honored in My sight…I love you.” (Isaiah 43:1-4).

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The Little Things


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A friend of mine told me a story today that I just loved. She has given me permission to share it on her behalf.

Shortly after becoming a believer my friend Ann (not her real name) attended her first Mary Kay retreat. She was just beginning her career as a consultant and was excited—if a little nervous—about the weekend.

Shortly after arriving, the ladies were instructed to dress for dinner. Apparently, MK consultants are to wear dresses or skirts much of the time and Ann was dismayed because she had only packed jeans.

She was very upset and shared her dilemma with the other ladies.

Before I go further, I have to share that Ann is always dressed to the nines.  Even when she wears jeans and a sweater, she looks perfectly pulled together; whereas  I would look like a scullery maid in the same outfit.  And don’t get me started on her fabulous jewelry. She sat in front of me on our first Sunday at our church and I spent the entire time admiring her beautiful earrings that sparkled and shone in the sunlight that streamed through the stained glass windows. She really is a marvel.

So, she is very particular about what she wears and was a little nervous when several women immediately jumped into action to offer her  borrowed outfits.

Before she knew it, Ann was being offered a lovely skirt and jacket that matched perfectly.

Just as she began to fret about what shoes she would wear (she is very particular about her shoes) someone handed her a pair of cowboys boots, which she loved.

As they headed out for dinner, one of the ladies noticed that Ann seemed somewhat hesitant, despite her fabulous outfit. After receiving an inquiry, Ann admitted that she wished she had packed some more jewelry, as she only wore a simple pair of turquoise earrings and she is known for her striking jewelry.

Without hesitation, this lady removed a silver turquoise cross from around her neck and gave it to Ann to wear. It perfectly completed her look and Ann was able to walk into that dinner with confidence.

Despite being a relatively new believer, she knew that Jesus was the one who had ultimately worked on her behalf that evening. He knew how important her appearance was to her and that she needed to feel confident as a professional in this new situation. A different outfit would have been easy to supply but the one Ann received was perfectly tailored to her taste and her personality.

Jesus does things like that all the time. He deeply cares about every single facet of our existence, no matter how small. Nothing concerning us is trivial to Him. (Psalm 139:1-18). He loves to answer our prayers in ways that will delight us if we leave room for Him to work as only He can.

That was an evening Ann would never forget.

She was reminded of that night earlier this week.

The same woman who lent her the turquoise cross became a good friend to Ann. She is moving away and called Ann to tell her she was coming by to leave her something. Ann wasn’t able to get to the door when her friend arrived and by the time she made it to the front door, the car was  gone. However, there was a gift hanging on her doorknob.

It was that same turquoise cross from that evening all those years ago.

Tears sprang to Ann’s eyes as she held that cross in her hands.

It was another message from her Savior that came at just the right time.

Ann had experienced a disappointment recently. As often happens, her timing was not Jesus’ timing and she was learning to live in that tension where we so often find ourselves as we follow Him.

The cross she held in her hand was a reminder that just as He had taken care of her that long ago night, He is still in full control.

So, if you are in a place where you are awaiting God’s movement in your life, take heart.  As John Piper has said, He is always at work in a thousand different ways that we cannot see.

His timing is perfect.

He knows what He is doing.

He is so good.

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Illuminated


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It is widely believed that following His final Passover meal before His crucifixion, Jesus headed to the Garden of Gethsemane singing Psalm 118.

I read that psalm in the Amplified version and was captivated by verse 27(a) that says, “The Lord is God, who has shown and given us light (He has illuminated us with grace, freedom, and joy.”

That is one of the most beautiful truths that I have ever heard.

Keep in mind that Jesus was on His way to the cross when He quoted this verse.

YET, He was illuminated with grace, freedom, and joy.

He is willing to do the same for each of His followers. One cannot give what one does not own…and Jesus IS Grace, Freedom, and Joy. His greatest gift to us is—and has always been—Himself.

However, we must be willing to subjugate our transient feelings and own the fact that grace, freedom, and joy are ours for the taking…no matter what we are facing.

The word illuminate means: “to supply or brighten with light; light up; to throw light on a situation; to enlighten, as with knowledge.”

Jesus says, “I AM the Light of the world.”

It is HIS Light that burns inside of your heart, that beams His love to the world around you, that lights up your darkness. His Light can never be extinguished. Even the unimaginable and unparalleled suffering that He was about to experience as He willingly paid the penalty for my sins and for your sins could not suppress it. He kept the joy and despised and scorned the shame.

You can do the same. How? Hebrews 12:2 vigorously declares: “He, for the joy of obtaining the prize that was set before Him, endured the cross, ignoring and despising the shame, and now is seated at the right hand of God.”

As a believer, you have a prize that is set before you. His name is Jesus. Every day of your earthly journey brings you one step closer to seeing His face.

You will never face anything as harrowing as what Jesus faced at the cross. How do I know? Because Jesus was totally and completely abandoned by God the Father when He hung on that cross, paying our penalty. It is impossible for us to fully realize the sheer magnitude of that horror for Jesus.

Yet because of Jesus’ courage and fierce love for us in being obedient to go to that cross,  we will never know our Heavenly Father’s desertion. He is with us always and forever.

Due to that fact, we can endure anything. It is not me saying so; God’s Word says so: “I have strength for all things in Christ who empowers me (I am ready for anything and equal to anything through Him who infuses inner strength into me; I am self-sufficient in Christ’s sufficiency.)—Phil. 4:13

That, my friend, is the victorious endurance Jesus has made possible for us.

So,  today as you walk along your path, whether the days are sunny or stormy, whether your heart is singing or breaking: right now, at this very moment, you are illuminated with grace, freedom, and joy from heaven above.

Live in light of that truth today.

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Psalm 30


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This morning, I read Psalm 30 and was touched by all the wonderful things that Jesus does for His own:

*lifts us up
* does not let our foes rejoice over us
* heals us when we cry to Him
*brings our lives up from the grave
* gives us His favor
* establishes us like a strong mountain
* has mercy and is gracious to us
* is our Helper
* turns our mourning into dancing
* clothes us with gladness

To that end, my tongue and my heart and everything glorious within me may sing praise to You and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give thanks to You forever! (Psalm 30:12).

This is Easter week…that time of year that leads up to the most incredible miracle and joyful event this world has ever seen: the Resurrection of Jesus.

Don’t be silent.

Share the greatest Gift that has ever been given in the history of the world.

Don’t be afraid to tell others  how beautiful He is.

There are so many who need to know the joy and the certainty that there is an empty grave and He is ALIVE!

“Despite our efforts to keep Him out, God intrudes. The life of Jesus is bracketed by two impossibilities: a virgin’s womb and an empty tomb. Jesus entered our world through a door marked ‘No Entrance’ and left through a door marked ‘No Exit.’ “—Peter Larson

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