“We have only this moment, sparkling like a star in our hand…and melting like a snowflake.” —Marie B. Ray
This afternoon, my husband and I took our daughter Julia to the local high school to get her registered for freshman year in the fall.
As I watched Julia interact with the guidance counselor, so poised and confident, the school office suddenly melted away and this is what I saw in my mind’s eye:
After the meeting, we went to the car to wait for her brother. As I drove home, listening to their laughter and chatter, more pictures from the past flashed through my mind:
Where has the time gone?!
Seasons change so quickly.
For the past 11 1/2 years, the kids have been homeschooled. That was a journey I never thought I would take and I went into it with much fear and trembling. Homeschooling is not for the faint of heart. To this day, it is the toughest thing I have ever done…but the joy was immense. I wouldn’t trade even one moment.
Eleven and a half years went by in the blink of an eye. My son is now in school full time, so once fall arrives, both will be gone and the house will be quiet…the days of workbooks, field trips, lunch out every Wednesday afternoon, long walks, messy science projects, bursts of laughter, and even sibling squabbles…will all be relegated to sweet memories.
I won’t mourn for the fact that my children are confident teenagers, ready to spread their wings; that is as it should be.
But I will mourn the fact that as I was living those precious days and years, I did not truly treasure them for the gifts that they were. I took them for granted. Just because the days sometimes felt like they would last forever, they did not.
I won’t make the same mistake again. For the next few years, I will cherish this time with my children.
I will not just see; I will perceive.
I will not just hear, I will listen.
I will not just pass the time; I will redeem it.
I will celebrate.
I will fully enter into my moments, even the seemingly “small” ones, realizing that “the whole of life–even the hard–is made up of the minute parts and if I miss the infinitesimals, I miss the whole…there is a way to live the big of giving thanks in all things. It is this: to give thanks in this one small thing. The moments will add up.” –Ann Voskamp, One Thousand Gifts.
Time is the great equalizer. Rich, poor, young, old, sick, healthy…we all have the same amount.
We all choose how to spend our days.
I will choose joy.
I will choose gratitude.
I will choose grace.
I will choose courage.
I will choose kindness.
I will choose mercy.
I will treasure.
“Time is a relentless river. It rages on, a respecter of no one. And this, this is the only way to slow time: When I fully enter time’s swift current, enter into the current moment with the weight of all my attention, I slow the torrent with the weight of me all here. I can slow the torrent by being all here. I only live the full life when I live fully in the moment.” —Ann Voskamp, One Thousand Gifts.
So, this day…and every day…enter fully into your moments. And live.